Sleeeeeeep Pleeeeeease

Okay, now here is a prime example for you of only portraying the happy life via social media - warning warning warning - 

Here is a beautiful happy pic or 2 from the weekends activities:

The reality of the WHOLE day of Saturday - Nixie was not well and cried and was miserable ALL DAY, it was extremely stressful and tiring. She did not sleep well during the night and I DO NOT cope well without sleep! Sunday morning I woke up feeling like absolute POOP and looking like this:

after spending quite some time Saturday doing this along side my teary, upset, tired, sick daughter:

We did not go to church as I could not function. Really! I am in a sorry state and on the verge of tears for the whole of today so far - thankfully Nixie is back to her normal happy self and singing and laughing - not me though... I am VERY fragile. Nixie has been so very sweet though and it does help to lift my spirits a little and help me to realise being a mum is still ok...

I was having a little cry from absolute weariness. Nixie came and sat on my lap with the most concerned look on her face and cradled my face in her hands saying "mummy sad, mummy crying" and then proceeding to list some of the things that must make her happy such as marshmallows, teddy cookies, balloons, babushka dolls etc and then "mummy happy now?" It truly was sweet but unfortunately for her just made me cry all the more - didn't I tell you I don't cope well without sleep and that I was feeling very fragile?

Lets leave on a positive note though so here is a pic from a fun morning of play dough play during the week:

and here is a snippet of Nixie singing that makes me happy :)

It's not the end of the world today (well not yet anyway) so life goes on and I am ok as I have a great husband to do life with! It's just certainly not all roses, rainbows, sunshine and smiles.

xxoo