She's Gonna Blow!

Every parent thinks their children are gifted right? Well - I am one of those parents who thinks their child is, haha. I have very little experience with children, I've never been one to baby sit other peoples kids and I had never changed a nappy before I had Nixie. I was wondering what kind of parent I would and am surprised at the parent I am.

The love you have for your child is incredible isn't it!

I would do anything for Nixie to ensure her safety and well being and if anything was ever to happen to her I think I would die (or at least want to die)...

The good things that I have discovered about being a parent is the unconditional love you have, the joy in life again and reliving your childhood; in a way. I have so much fun experiencing things through Nixie's eyes and I am learning to slow down with her and allow her to experience life in her way. But this has been a hard lesson to learn.

I have quite a temper I have discovered and I can be very impatient. Having a child has taught me so much about myself and helped me to realise that some things need to change. I was feeling like a terrible mother because I would lose my temper at my child when I should be extending her grace, it scared me in a way that I did not want Nixie to act like me at all. It was time to get some help as I just was not making the changes I so desperately wanted to make no matter how much I wanted it. In desperation I turned to the internet to see what other mums where doing and came across a great chat room where a wonderful book was recommended. I went straight out and bought it -"She's Gonna Blow" by Julie Ann Barnhill. BEST BOOK EVER!

After reading this book I immediately didn't feel alone anymore in my struggles and I started making the changes I needed - the thing I am finding that helps the most is dedicating time to God EVERY DAY - spending time reading God's word and talking with Him is helping me get my attitude right and my priorities in the right order. Gosh I am still struggling with keeping my cool but I am well on my way to being a better mum.

I had the best child hood growing up with amazing loving parents who where actually quite strict with me and my brother but I never remember being scared of them with the discipline we received and that is my hope with Nixie and the other kids we hope to have. #2 is on the way and I pray every day for this baby's safety and health.

On a funny side note - this is how we let everyone know Nixie was going to be a big sister:

Its going to be an amazing Christmas and summer with a new little bubba and making our family a family of 4!

Ok - time for me to do some things with the remaining time of Nixie's day nap, thank goodness she still has this nap 75% of the time :)

xxoo